~Rachelthehedgehog

*sigh* And so I begin to go through hell once again. I don't see what her problem is. *sigh* Why me? And why does it have to happen again and again?

First of all, what really pissed me off was the fact that she read my diary. My PERSONAL diary. And she ripped pages out that had me ranting about her being a bitch. And it wasn't JUST one page, it was like, 10 of them. And she's using the things that I said in there to taunt me and use them against me. I mean, my diary isn't like this journal. My diary is JUST FOR ME. I'm a teenage girl, she moniters everything I do and controls everything I do. Why the hell can't I have just a little bit of privacy, Don't I have at least the right to say my feelings in a personal diary. Why? Why can't she understand that I need some privacy? I mean, the bitch comes in to my BATHROOM when I'm in there on the toilet and rants at me, and looks at me. Dammit, WHY can't I have privacy!? I mean, I understand her monitering me to keep me safe, but reading my diary That NOBODY else is supposed to read and coming into my bathroom is just a little bit far. Dammit... I'm so mad at her right now.

And another thing that really ticked me off was yesterday. I was planning to go up to a flea market up north with my neighbor, and yet, she talked me out of it. I mean, Friday morning she was like, "Oh yeah, sure! It'll be good for you!" And then on Friday night she was all serious and like, "I don't want you to go. I don't want you to screw up, and whenever I'm not around you always say things that are out of line and you screw up friendships." And she just went on and on about it. God it's so annoying!

And then yesterday when I was trapped at home by myself, she wouldn't stop calling me. I swear, she's worse than a teenager on her cell phone! OH MY GOD. It's so irritating! *sigh* I mean, I WANTED to go with my neighbor, but she wouldn't let me after she'd already said yes! God that makes me so freaking mad. And then she was like, "Wanna go play bingo at the Church?" And I was like, HELL NO. The only people that go to BINGO are old people... Nobody my age was going to be there. It was like you had to be over 18 to go and play, but I would have been able to go because my aunt was the one arranging it. *sigh* It would have just been old people, with some old bitch calling out numbers for 3 hours. So I stayed home. And then when she came back later, I had to throw a fit because I REFUSED to wear this dumb t-shirt that she bought at the church.

2 Churches (including ours) are combining in our community. And they came up with a new name the "Solid Rock". I'm sorry, but I REFUSE to go to a church with that name. And I REALLY refuse to wear a butt ugly tshirt with Rocks on it. AGGH I just want to tear my hair out at the thought! AGGGH. It is SO FUCKING STUPID. And I'm appearently the only one that thinks so because I was the only one NOT smiling in the dumbass picture they took for the new "Solid Rock" congregation. I'm NEVER going to that church. EVER. It's a dumb name! It's RETARDED. It sounds like some church full of Black People! And there is nobody in the fucking congregation that's black anyway! Arrrrggg... It makes me so mad. ) :

Plus, yesterday mom said that we were going to go to Build-a-Bear later today. I collect Teddy Bears, and I just need 1 more to complete this year's 4-H project. And now the bitch is going back on her word and saying that We're NOT going today. Aggggh! It makes me so fucking mad! She can't keep promises any better than I can! (Well, I'm actually pretty good at keeping promises)

*Sigh* I actually AM ranting this time. Gotta Go.